Well life is defiantly interesting for me! July has be soooo hectic and busy and fun! Had the awaesomeness of Stone Mtn for 4th of July! Had dad's b day party the 5th.. went to six flags....
And I did something today that I haven't done in YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I actually went swimming.. and no I do not mean in a regular swimming pool either... I mean a lake where you don't have any friggin clue as to what is swimming around you.
Now this is a feat for me! Obviously you don't know me well enough to know of my fear of water that I can't see the bottom of! I don't know what it is actually, just something about not knowing what is swimming around you scares the hell out of me! This hasn't always been the case for me. I use to go tubbing and rafting and all that fun stuff... But I think I've just seen to many of those movies that it just freaked me out to lake and river water. Needless to say I was pretty liqured up before I managed the dive in! LOL And now I'm suffering from a sun burn from hell. But man was it worth the relaxing day.
I'm in the process of a video vlog for you all..... I've managed to complete it, not the task is figuring out how to upload it! But I promise it is coming soon!!!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
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Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Holy Moly Cow
Wow has it been a long long long long ass time or what? How are you all???? I hope all is well? Well I'm finally back and back for good! Lots of things going on and lots of things to up date you on! Had a bad ass 4th of July last night. Went to Stone Mountain State park with the family and watched an amazing laser show and even better fireworks! I will definatly have to post some pictures up for you all to see tomorrow!!!! Just wanted to let you all know I'm back full throttle and ready to start bloggin everyday again and making you smile! Leave some love and let me know you are all still alive out there
Till tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
Till tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
Thursday, May 7, 2009
yes yes it has been a while!
Wow... two posts in two days!!!! I'm getting back to my old self for sure! lol Can't stay on to long to up date you all... the man is here for the night and I like spending time with him when i get the chance to...
I hope that you are all doing well and update me on your lives since I haven't the time right now to read thru the million blogs that I have subscribed to! lol
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
I hope that you are all doing well and update me on your lives since I haven't the time right now to read thru the million blogs that I have subscribed to! lol
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Moving on and moving up
Well it's now May!!!! Can you friggin believe it??? I've been so busy with the new life, the new man and the prospects of new beginnings that I've totally lost track of time and space as I know it! Well it's about almost 3am here in good old Georgia! I'm wide awake and getting ready to get some work done!
But had to drop in and say hi to you all and I promise to give you all updates REALLY SOON! I miss talking with you all!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
But had to drop in and say hi to you all and I promise to give you all updates REALLY SOON! I miss talking with you all!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Goodness people
Well I just realized today that I haven't updated you on life and things! Goodness I'm sorry! Been so busy getting my life back and having such a good time! LOL
Well lets see... last time I updated you all I was in a pretty good funk about things. But shit.. .now I have no time to think about the past.
She and I have talked. She wanted to be friends. I told her no. It isn't in me to be her friend. I mean I spent my life for two years with her. There is no way I can honestly be friends with her and not remember and not hurt. And she wasn't ok with it at all. But it's better this way.
I have met someone. He is sweet. His name is Wes. I like him. It's not something I'm ready to jump into head first. But it's fun hanging out and having a good time with him. I mean yea we are considered 'boyfriend and girlfriend' but it's a very very slow process for me.
So that is life in a nutshell right now.
My days are pretty much filled to the T with cleaning the house, laundry, helping momma and poppa out and trying to have a life on top of working. So as you can tell I'm getting things back on track and having fun doing it. :) Hope to be reading all of your blogs again really soon!!!!
Love you all and thanks for being here for me when I need you.
Sabrae Carter
Well lets see... last time I updated you all I was in a pretty good funk about things. But shit.. .now I have no time to think about the past.
She and I have talked. She wanted to be friends. I told her no. It isn't in me to be her friend. I mean I spent my life for two years with her. There is no way I can honestly be friends with her and not remember and not hurt. And she wasn't ok with it at all. But it's better this way.
I have met someone. He is sweet. His name is Wes. I like him. It's not something I'm ready to jump into head first. But it's fun hanging out and having a good time with him. I mean yea we are considered 'boyfriend and girlfriend' but it's a very very slow process for me.
So that is life in a nutshell right now.
My days are pretty much filled to the T with cleaning the house, laundry, helping momma and poppa out and trying to have a life on top of working. So as you can tell I'm getting things back on track and having fun doing it. :) Hope to be reading all of your blogs again really soon!!!!
Love you all and thanks for being here for me when I need you.
Sabrae Carter
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
New horizons
Well life has been pretty much the same around here. I don't really get out of the house to often. I sit around I work and that is pretty much it so far. Did get to go almost into Atlanta few days back and went to Fort Mountain Park with the Family. Not sure if I have mentioned that in my last post or not.
This is getting better day by day. Was sick the past couple of days with a tummy thing. But all better today.
Haven't talked to the ex until today. She called me to let me know I got some mail. Boy was that hard. It took everything in me to stay calm. My heart was pounding, my blood was racing, and all I could think of was how beautiful she sounded on the other end of the phone. All I wanted to do is reach thru the miles between us and hold her, touch her. I miss her so much yet I hide it so well. I don't honestly know how I do it at times. But everyday is getting better, then boom something happens.
I walked in on my sister Angel listening to Edwin McCain's I'll be song and broke down yesterday. It was the song that I walked down the aisle to. Not even a year ago yet. And for me to hear that song was like a brick wall just fell on me. It kills me. I put the photo albums away. I hid every ounce of her from my sight and yet she haunts me like a drug. Like something I just can't shake. I've never had someone have this hold on me. It's like no matter how hard I try I can't shake it. Why is it so hard? But yet I try so hard to forget her, to forget the good times forget the bad times. But something out there always brings her right back to the frontal lobe of my brain haunting me, teasing my emotions. I don't like it at all.
If you can't tell this is a day where all I want to do is curl up into a ball and just hide. Want to forget she ever existed. Forget that part of my life happend like it was just a dream. A very vivid and real dream tho. So real that I can still feel the pulse, the throb the hurt. Feel it all. Because it wasn't a dream It was my reality. And I wish it wasn't.
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
This is getting better day by day. Was sick the past couple of days with a tummy thing. But all better today.
Haven't talked to the ex until today. She called me to let me know I got some mail. Boy was that hard. It took everything in me to stay calm. My heart was pounding, my blood was racing, and all I could think of was how beautiful she sounded on the other end of the phone. All I wanted to do is reach thru the miles between us and hold her, touch her. I miss her so much yet I hide it so well. I don't honestly know how I do it at times. But everyday is getting better, then boom something happens.
I walked in on my sister Angel listening to Edwin McCain's I'll be song and broke down yesterday. It was the song that I walked down the aisle to. Not even a year ago yet. And for me to hear that song was like a brick wall just fell on me. It kills me. I put the photo albums away. I hid every ounce of her from my sight and yet she haunts me like a drug. Like something I just can't shake. I've never had someone have this hold on me. It's like no matter how hard I try I can't shake it. Why is it so hard? But yet I try so hard to forget her, to forget the good times forget the bad times. But something out there always brings her right back to the frontal lobe of my brain haunting me, teasing my emotions. I don't like it at all.
If you can't tell this is a day where all I want to do is curl up into a ball and just hide. Want to forget she ever existed. Forget that part of my life happend like it was just a dream. A very vivid and real dream tho. So real that I can still feel the pulse, the throb the hurt. Feel it all. Because it wasn't a dream It was my reality. And I wish it wasn't.
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
Friday, March 20, 2009
So life is great
I'll tell you what! I'm having the time of my life! Noticed that I need to change my profile on here... but other than that wow!!! I'll tell you! LOL
First off, met a guy... yes I do like guys as well as girls! LOL!!!!! He was hot, ok. We hung out and chilled for a while. Talked to him a few times. Met a girl, yes I still like girls! LOL!!!! She is awesome! We have had so much fun getting to know eachother. No I'm not trying to jump into anything right away. Believe me I've had my share of the relationship scene! But definatly keeping my options open and going to have fun getting to know people.
She told me that there was probably no way that we would get back together and that she isn't 'married' and so hey that is all fine and dandy to me. I told her to choose her words very wisely becuz once she pushed me out there was no turning back for me. Once I gave up that was it. And she told me that she wouldn't fuck up and make that mistake again. So hey those were her words not mine. Gave me that push I needed to get my ass in gear and realize hey there is a whole sea of people (men and women) out there for me to explore... And a fishing I am going! It's really been fun going!
AND Oh you member that stranger on the bus!!!!! Well he and I have been talking as well. He's a sweet man! And he's coming thru Georgia for a job that he's doing so he might stop and see me! I mean wow.... And to think that the ex wife thought I'd probably sit and wallow! SHIT! lol I'm not ugly and I know it and so do the men and women in my life! Not like I'm going to go have rampant sex with any of the 3... but it is nice to have my options open and have people around that want to go out and hang out and can see me for me and not some 'housewife'!!!!!
Wow people 2009 started out sucky... but this isreally going to be a wonderful year!!!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
First off, met a guy... yes I do like guys as well as girls! LOL!!!!! He was hot, ok. We hung out and chilled for a while. Talked to him a few times. Met a girl, yes I still like girls! LOL!!!! She is awesome! We have had so much fun getting to know eachother. No I'm not trying to jump into anything right away. Believe me I've had my share of the relationship scene! But definatly keeping my options open and going to have fun getting to know people.
She told me that there was probably no way that we would get back together and that she isn't 'married' and so hey that is all fine and dandy to me. I told her to choose her words very wisely becuz once she pushed me out there was no turning back for me. Once I gave up that was it. And she told me that she wouldn't fuck up and make that mistake again. So hey those were her words not mine. Gave me that push I needed to get my ass in gear and realize hey there is a whole sea of people (men and women) out there for me to explore... And a fishing I am going! It's really been fun going!
AND Oh you member that stranger on the bus!!!!! Well he and I have been talking as well. He's a sweet man! And he's coming thru Georgia for a job that he's doing so he might stop and see me! I mean wow.... And to think that the ex wife thought I'd probably sit and wallow! SHIT! lol I'm not ugly and I know it and so do the men and women in my life! Not like I'm going to go have rampant sex with any of the 3... but it is nice to have my options open and have people around that want to go out and hang out and can see me for me and not some 'housewife'!!!!!
Wow people 2009 started out sucky... but this isreally going to be a wonderful year!!!
Signing off,
Sabrae Carter
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